mas nakakaiyak pa rin yung the heirs kesa sa nangyari satin
It happens at 2AM in the heart of New York City
We are wearing floodlights instead of clothes and glancing at each other like thieves
I can’t look at you without flushing and you say it makes my freckles connect and you say that you have never been so charmed
My mouth does not say your name, it trembles instead
when our legs brush I think about you wrapped in sheets
I think about you in the morning, or in midday I wonder how the light wears your naked body, I wonder how you take your morning coffee, I wonder if I could taste your toothpaste when we kiss
you smile like you know what I am thinking and squeeze my hand so hard that my fingers forget that they ever belonged to me.
The city breathes and swells around us, it is so quiet that even our footfalls are drumbeats I can hear the pavement whispering from miles away and it is saying “you are alive together.”
And we were
we played guessing games until 4AM
you brought your dressing gown out from the 15th floor flat and wrapped it around me twice
the homeless man in the subway station showed us teeth and asked ‘you two kids in love?’
and baby I think I swallowed my own tongue from shaking my head so hard because I couldn’t tell you then and you couldn’t either so you tipped your hat and laughed nervously and bought him coffee instead
we ate five donuts each and you licked the frosting from my fingertips and I could have sworn that even the sky blushed pink at the sight,
the stray cats wrapped themselves around our legs and I shivered into my bones
At dawn you kissed my forehead and we sat legs dangling on the top of an NYC balcony
the city came alive beneath us
and holding each other, we trembled into life right along with it.
— Azra.T “This city at night looks too much like a heart beating.”
The night we both get drunk
I told you that I’m having a hard time. I started to cry the moment you asked me to tell you why I was so sad. “Your voice is shaking, what’s wrong?” You asked. “He said he want to break up with me because I’m just not enough. He said he can’t stay with me any longer because he saw someone better.” I answered as my voice trembled because of that pain I don’t want to feel ever, again.
“I’ll be there in fifteen minutes.” You said.
You asked me to get inside your car and we were both quiet as you drove to the nearest store, presented your fake i.d and bought liquors. You were smiling at me as you went outside that store. You showed me the liquors you bought and you said that we’re going to get drunk.
3:30 AM, we were sitting on the roof of your car. We’re so drunk and I asked you for a cigarette. “Why are you drinking, too?” I was so curious because you look so weary after drinking five bottles of rum. And I was stunned because of what you said to me…
“I waited for this one girl for almost three years. I was always there for her. I am the one who finds her beautiful with her pajamas and messy bun. I was the one who saw her cry most of the time and I was the one who carried her one time to her bed because she was stoned after a heartbreak. And the most stupid part here is, all of her heartbreaks were all because of this one stupid bastard guy.”
I knew that you were talking about me. You looked at me and you suddenly kissed me. That was the best unexpected 2 seconds of my life. You rested your head on my shoulder. I was about to hug you but you asked me something.
“Aren’t you tired yet of crying for the same person all over and over again?”
I touched your cheek and I said, “I am tired, finally.”
“No, I am asking myself.” you replied.
You have the power to break me into pieces; with your good and bad side, with your laughter or your tear, with your strength or with your fear.
And you don’t have to say you’re sorry because I allowed you to stay in my life even if I know that one day, you’re going to leave me anyway.
Your power to break me is really strong. But my love and trust in you is stronger than the love I have for myself. I let you hurt me because I thought that’s what you need for you to stay.
I’m going to miss you… terribly."
— This one’s for you (written by melody)
Anonymous asked: I might kiss you.
I might be bad at it. - Jamie, A Walk to Remember
guys. ‘yung six word story ko, 6000 plus na ‘yung notes. thank you. para kay raymond ‘yun eh. (*)
Anonymous asked: Yung ex mo na mahal ka pa din, o sa bagong taong masaya ka pero walang kasiguraduhan??
i don’t know. i’d rather spend more time with myself than being with someone who will just make things more complicated. at least pag ikaw lang mag-isa, wala kang ka-agaw.
thoughts during 3 am
I fell in love to the wrong person once. I didn’t give everything to him but my world fell apart. It is because that’s my first love and I expected it to be okay just like what they say. But I was wrong for expecting too much about love. After how many years, I just realized that you should let love happen the way it should be. Don’t expect, don’t manipulate it because you might change its meaning.
School is hell. I don’t want to study. I want to work. I want a work that will not question my grades and a work that will look at my abilities instead of the educational degree I attained. Grades are just numbers. My experiences as a person are still the best thing I have to get ready for any work.
Fake people. The ones I once called, “friends” are now the reasons why I closed myself to the world. They are now the reasons why my life is miserable because they didn’t just left me hanging; they are still ruining me as a person for some unknown reason. Like, wtf if you don’t like me, leave me alone and don’t talk to me. You hate me? I don’t like you either.
I want to be skinny not because I want boys to like me. I want myself to like me that’s why. But oh God, it feels so good to eat a lot. I love eating a lot.
We’re all gonna die but I’m so scared to die. But that’s okay. Because no matter how fucked up the world is, I still want to spend my days here with the people I love and do things I am good at.
last time, i was so sad so i decided to go somewhere far from home so i can forget everything for at least how many hours. okay so, i rode a bus and went to gateway (in fact, gateway was one of our favorite places but i really wanted to go there so…) i stayed at national bookstore there. and then in one of the corners, i saw this guy with fair skin and curly hair. he looks like a prince i saw in movie once. he was reading “eleanor and park” (my fave book) while listening to music. i can tell that he was listening to music because i can hear it through his headphones.
so, he was in front of me while i looked at books on the other side.while i was searching for books, i hymned a song: “i meant to do that by paul brandt”
and then i was shocked; almost screamed when he suddenly said, "hey there, paul brandt. good choice of song!" and then he walked away. i was left there, standing and thinking of what just happened.
and i swear, i wish i could see him again.
Anonymous asked: parehas po tyo ate 6yrs na dn kme tapos biglanggg boom </3 :(
we’re all going to be okay. there are a lot of people to meet and a lot of things to do. don’t be sad baby, alright? cheer up.
"I saw this elderly gentleman dining by himself, with an old picture of a lady in front of him. I though maybe I could brighten his day by talking to him.
As I had assumed, she was his wife. But I didn’t expect such an interesting story. They met when they were both 17. They dated briefly, then lost contact when he went to war and her family moved. But he said he thought about her the entire war. After his return, he decided to look for her. He searched for her for 10 years and never dated anyone. People told him he was crazy, to which he replied “I am. Crazy in love”. On a trip to California, he went to a barber shop. He told the barber how he had been searching for a girl for ten years. The barber went to his phone and called his daughter in. It was her! She had also been searching for him and never dated either.
He proposed immediately and they were married for 55 years before her death 5 years ago. He still celebrates her birthday and their anniversary. He takes her picture with him everywhere and kisses her goodnight.
Some inspiring things he said;
"I was a very rich man. Not with money, but with love"
"I never had a single argument with my wife, but we had lots of debates"
"People are like candles. At any moment a breeze can blow it out, so enjoy the light while you have it."
"Tell your wife that you love her everyday. And be sure to ask her, have I told you that I love you lately?"
Be sure to talk to the elderly. Especially strangers. You may think that you will brighten their day, but you may be surprised that they can actually brighten yours.”
on missing that one special person i love
They say that it always hurts at night when you’re on your bed and the thoughts about him seem so endless which makes your nights grow longer. They say that during 2 AM, your thoughts about him will stab you in your chest and kill you while you try so hard to go to sleep.
But not in my case.
Every morning, after waking up and inhaling the air without your scent is the most painful thing to do. The thought of imagining that you should be lying next to me every morning and realizing after 7 seconds that you’re not there, is killing me; everyday.
That feeling when I am preparing the breakfast for myself sucks because I used to prepare breakfast for the both of us. I used to look at you while I cook your favorite food and those half smiles you used to gave to me haunt me every morning while I’m alone in the kitchen.
The music you used to play while waiting for me to go out of the bathroom still echoes through my head and it’s as if I could hear you singing while the cold water touches my skin.
You have to get back here.
I want you back.
"So your “goodnight” actually meant “goodbye"
— six word story
Anonymous asked: This is really weird...but uh..I'm a guy in the US, Let's say my name is "Sheldon." I was on a dating website recently, and someone messaged me. She had your picture...i googled the picture and found this tumblr. It made me really happy at first, because you seem like a really cool person, and I was looking forward to meeting you. Sadly, the person who messaged me was not you. Just thought I'd let you know. Whether you're looking for love or have already found it, I wish you the best.
i just lost the love i thought i found.
and, about that someone who’s using my photos… she made the wrong decision. there are a lot of pretty girls out there and she used my photo instead. hahaha.
Anonymous asked: where do you live?